family

firstly, i'd like to state for the record that i sorely missed my family last week. u see while i was sick and miserable at home, i really was all alone. no one else was home. sis had gone off on a school trip for a coupla days to batam and my parents had joined my uncle's church for their church camp. so wed, thu and fri i was all alone at home!!!!!

now wed was pretty ok.. u know, it's quite a cool thing to be able to hang around the house without a care in the world and just chill and do whatever i felt like doing (tho slightly marred by my ailment) but once night fell, i realised even when i wanted to talk to someone i only had the bunny wabbit to talk to. and while she's cute and fuzzy, somehow she lacks the conversational finesse of a human being and the warmth of someone i call mummy, daddy or cheche...

plus i was sick! and there was no one to pat pat me... to tell me i'll be ok... to check if i needed anything.. to remind me to drink more water. to chase me to bed to ensure i get more rest... to explain in great details why nadal is soooo cute! =P etcetcetc...

so yes, i missed my family... and more than ever it made me realise how loved i am. that even one day without anyone else in the house, not hearing the usual slippers wander around the house... the cup being taken down the shelf, the sound of water running... all evidences that there are people in the house.. just one day and i knew i always take the simplest things for granted. to wake up and know that i can wish daddy and mummy good morning.. to lay in bed and know my cheche will come in and sprawl on my bed to talk abt everything and anything... there was nothing. just me, my tellie and the bunny wabbit.

i've been trying for like half a year now to convince my family to go away on a short holiday. just the four of us. cos once 09 comes, things are going to be very different, cos i'll not only be their daughter and sister, but also someone's wife. then he will have to come first as we start our own family. so while things are still as they are, i just wish we could just spend a few days as a family. but they seem to think it's a silly notion. that we already spend time together here. why spend money and go away and sit in a hotel to do it. i guess for me, many years down the road, and if my parents aren't around anymore, i want to have something to remember that my family did together.

but perhaps they're right. we don't need a holiday. right now, i just try and remember things. like i'll take a moment to study my mum when she's choosing a fish in the market. i look at my dad as he's reading the papers. i look at my sis as she sat across me all sun burnt and telling me all abt her trip to batam. i sit in the car and remember how things are. daddy at the driver's seat, mummy next to him, cheche behind mummy cos that's her preferred seat and me, behind daddy. meal times, the look on their faces as they laugh... i guess we don't have to make memories... but to simply take a step back and put lil incidences into our memory bank.

i guess i'm a bit of a silly nilly... but i know that when i'm old and gray, i'll remember my mummy's smile... my daddy's laughter when he watches just for laughs... my sister's enthusiasm as she shares another nugget of information... that's my family! and i love them. =)