The Decision

You know how in life we have to make decisions all the time? Some are small decisions like what to wear, which path to take to the mrt, which door to stand at to wait for the mrt, to veer to the left or right when someone's in your path... decisions that u do there and then that don't really seem to affect your life a whole big deal... then again, some who have watched 'turn left turn right' might beg to differ.

but there are decisions that are really big. big enough to mean a total change in your routine, a total change of what you do, a total change of your lifestyle really. i just had to make such a decision. making the decision wasn't too difficult. it was dealing with the change that it brought on that was tough. today was arguably the hardest day i've had at work in the past one year two months and two days. i'm thankful the day is over...

i thank God for

1. good friends along the day who helped me get thru the day
2. xiang who spent the evening with me
   
3. my family... their concern throughout the day meant a lot
4. the fact that i'm going to be able to hit my bed in just a while and just sleep

if u're reading this, please say a prayer for me... that my focus will remain on Him and Him alone... that i'll have strength and courage to face what lies ahead... wisdom to deal with the situation and people around me... a love that is against human understanding to love those who i find so tough to love right now...