protection from leery men

it was a traumatic evening yesterday as i encountered two leery men. one at the bus stop near my work place. this fella actually almost crashed into some big object when he had his head turned to look at me. after stopping just in time. He got his bearings and turned his head 75 degrees to stare at me again! it's not a hmm i know you look... it was a leer! yuckyuckyuck.... i gave him a 'what are you staring at blink' and he quickly cycled away...

i was relieved when my bus came and it looked nice and empty which was rare for 54 which travels thru town... so i boarded and there were many seats... i was going to proceed to my usual seat but there was another leery man there... he was huge and dirty... dirty in more ways than one... so i chose to sit nearer the door... i was very tired and wanted to nap... but tried as i could i couldn't... and suddenly i was aware of a shuffling behind me... now the seat mehind me is a raised one, and i knew a school girl was sitting there... so when i turned my head towards the window i saw the figure behind was so huge that it couldn't have been the slight schoolgirl i had seen earlier. i wasn't sure so i looked to my right and caught sight of a huge figure sitting right behind me in the reflection on the windows. the guy was literally breathing down my neck. groan... i looked around for a good place to sit, and decided to move to the row on the right and sit next to the window with a lady on my left... but the lady got off the bus just as i made my move to sit next to her. so there in the empty bus i was vulnerable to have the huge chunk sit next to me. i felt his gaze shift and it was really really really uncomfortable. i prayed and prayed that God will protect me... i got my umbrella out ready to brandish or whack if necessary should he have chosen to sit right next to me. thankfully he didn't... one would think i was imagining things... but as he got off the bus several stops later, he hovered around my seat as i purposely avoided his gaze and he kept turning to stare somemore... if any of you watched kill bill, u'd know which skill i would have liked to acquire at that time to relieve him of his eyeballs.

i thank God that I didn't have to resort to any skills that i didn't have and i was actually thinkin of getting off and just grabbing a cab but i was worried i'd get trailed... so i asked God for wisdom and asked Him that if it were a good thing to get off, have someone else press the bell and i'd jump off at the last minute to prevent following... but no one pressed the bell for the bus stop that usually has quite a few people dropping off. so while logic told me to run, my heart told me to trust in Him. and i did... the chunk got off at the next bus stop. whew...

it's been quite a while since i last encountered such a nasty thing... and realised how much i detested such things... it makes one feel violated... i've been told that some males say that we should feel honoured that they even bother to look at us... but really, i don't need to be leered at to feel appreciated. i'm not saying that the whole male gender is like that or has this idea, but the thought repulses me to think that we ought to feel flattered that these men stare at us like we are nothing but a piece of meat. it has no respect. it leaves us with no dignity. so the next time u think of looking at a lady that way, thinking that it's 'praising her' think again buddy.